These days when I remember Mina, there's an ache in my heart. She was one of the first people I worked with, as a swap or what you call language exchange. It was one of those encounters that you never forget. A friend of mine had given her my number, and when she called the first time, I couldn't answer the phone and somehow, I forget to call her back. after a few hours, she called again. that gave me the impression that she was really interested in having classes. I wasnt sure if it was going to be paid classes, but I was willing to meet her and decide, besides, at that time, I had a lot time on my hands. We met, in a bar, and there was no awkward moments, it felt like we had known each other for years. At that first meeting, everything felt right, and we parted with an agreement to meet again.
And so started a beautiful friendship. She was a bit younger than me, but we had so many things in common and she had a vibrancy about, which reminded of myself in what felt like another time and age. For years, I considered her as my best friend, I loved her like a sister and told everybody that cared to listen so.
We shared so many things, we talked about our goals, our dreams, we shared recipes, beauty and style tips. we did everything that two young, beautiful and lively ladies of our generation would do. I felt young again.
She was always there when I needed her, and I believe that I was there for her too and I sincerely felt that what we had was a healthy and well-balanced relationship between two equally well-balanced and interesting young women. I still don´t know what went wrong or how, but suddenly, she stopped taking my calls and after some months, I recieved this email from her.
Hi,
I saw your calls these days and I didn't answer 'cause I'm studying. I'm so sorry for not being with you all this time and having disappeared but until I successfully finish my exams, I'm afraid that I can't have any social life. This "exams" demands all my attention and time, and so I can't have any contact except with Richie, even with him I'm having some serious arguements. I only go out a little bit on Fridays with him after leaving the academy and then the rest of the week I'm home studying.
I feel continually guilty with all my friends, but I need to do this well, and the exigencies are really high!
I hope you can understand, I hope you can forgive me for not taking care of you and being present in your life.
Once I get the job of my dreams, I'll contact you, I promise, and I hope you'll be there, but if not I will understand it. I know I'm asking too much.
Sorry again! I hope you know I love you!Mina.
These days, I don't talk to her. Not because I don't want to, but because I can't.
Thanks to FaceBook, I know she has finished her "exams", I know she didn´t do as well as she wanted to, my heart went out to her, because I know how much she wanted to pass. I sent her an email asking, I got no reply.
I haven´t given up. I still congratulate her on her birthdays, I comment on pictures she uploads. The most I´ve got is a "like" button in response.
We still live in the same city, but , it's been 5 years since I last saw her, 3 years since I last spoke to her on the phone and 2 and half years since that email.
I miss her. And I´ve stopped trying to understand the "why" of the distance between us. I just feel an ache in my heart whenever I remember her and sometimes when I´m out in the city centre, I look for her in the street, hoping that just maybe, we can run into each other.
